Friday, July 31, 2015

This I promise u

Dedicate to my beloved one
My only one..my hero
My love
#WMA

This is what my heart want to say..

"When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart 
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes 
Each loving day 
I know this feeling won't go away 
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all.."


Every words i say is true..
This i promise u


*Indeed
I miss my other half..

Thursday, July 30, 2015

26dec14

Time flies so fast,

Oct 2014,
Perancangn utk menyatukan 2 hati d'p'cptkan
Tanpa perbincangan yg panjang..
Jun➡️ Mei ➡️ Jan ➡️ Dec
Dengan izin Allah segala persiapan dipermudahkan..
Abg2 aku byk membantu dan menyokong ak..thx to them
Dalam tempoh 2 bulan,
Kami settlekan dokumen2 berkaitan dan beli cincin
Prosedur di kelantan sgt la senng..
Siapkn dokumen dan selebihnye tok imam uruskan

Pejam celik pejam celik

December dtg..
Aku menghitung hari..saat akan diijab kabul
Tiada majlis besar-besaran
Perancangannya majlis untuk keluarga, saudara dan jiran terdekat shja

Takdir Allah,
Seminggu sblm tarikh yg ditetapkan kelantan dilanda banjir
Banjir yg besar..
Perasaan tu, Tuhan je tahu
Tiap2 hari doa supaya dipermudahkan segala urusan
Lihat dgn mata kasar, org akn ckp
Majlis xakan berjalan
Saudara2 pn mula bersuara minta ditangguhkan
Tp hati tetap menaruh harapan 

Namun,
Dugaan menimpa, 3 ari sebelum mjlis
Abah dan adik aku dilanda kecelakaan
Mereka terkandas di terengganu, kereta yg dinaiki hanyut 
Keadaan abah ak yg sedia sakit makin teruk
Hati aku merintih..
Dugaan dtg satu per satu
2 hari sebelum, jalan yg menghubungkan utara ke kelantan runtuh 
Abg2 dan kak ipar xdpt pulang
Harapan dorang untuk hadir saat aku diijab kabul terkandas..

Dugaan dtg lg bila jambatan sultan yahya terpaksa ditutup akibat bnjir
Keadaan berlaku dgn pantas
Semua org terkandas
Saudara dan fmly WMA xdpt hadir

WMA blk shari sblm dgn flight pagi
Ptg itu jmbtn ditutup
Hanya dea seorang
Aku agak ini pengalaman yg xdpt dilupakan

Dgn semua talian terputus, xdpt inform org luar or dlm keadaan semasa

Terlalu byk dugaan terjadi..terlalu pnjg utk ak cerita satu per satu
Satu2 nya wali aku, terpksa ditahan di wad
Kemudian dgn keadaan sakit yg amat, dea discharge sejam sebelum majlis untuk mewalikan aku
WMA terpksa hadir seorg diri tanpa ditemAni sesiapa 
Aku mula bersiap utk ke masjid stengah jam sebelum
Tanpa secalit makeup
Tanpa jurukamera yang merakam saat2 manis diijab kabul

Namun,
Jika Allah da tetapkan jodoh kita, macam mana dugaan melanda..
Ia akn tetap berjalan
Alhamdulillah dgn sekali lafaz
Aku dgn rasminye menjadi isteri WMA dgn keadaan yg serba sederhana
Keadaan sayu dipihak WMA sendiri, menghadirkan diri alone bukan suatu yg mudah
Aku yakin rmai lelaki diluar sane xmmpu buat

Belum ckup satu hari aku berada dirumah sbgai isteri 
Ak terpaksa menjalankan tugas demi membantu mangsa banjir 

Aku satu2 nye pharmacist yg dpt dihubungi dan diperlukan di tempat2 perlindungan mangsa bnjir..
Dengan inai merah dijari, aku berkejaran mencari ubat disebabkan laluan ke klinik aku terpaksa ditutup

Keadaan agk huru hara..bekalan elektrik dan air terputus di kebanyakkan tempat

Keadaan abah yg semakin teruk..luka2 makin merebak
Aku dan abang bergilir2  melakukan dressing
Alhamdulillah WMA memahami keadaan aku
Dea berada disamping aku sehingga keadaan kembali reda
Berulang alik menghantar aku ke tempat kerja 
Saat yg memenatkan tapi indah bila dipikirkan kembali..

Kenangan yg xsemua orang alami

Semoga dugaan tersebut dpt dijadikan pengajaran pd kami semua
Allah sentiasa ada

Nikmat yg Allah bagi untuk kami terlalu byk utk dihitungkan kembali

I love Allah
I love Rasul
I love my husband
I love my family

Terlalu byk dugaan utk kami disatu2kan,
Secara peribadi terlalu rugi utk disia2kan
Pe yg tetapkan oleh Allah adalah yg terbaik

Semoga dugaan yang melanda kami suami isteri menjadikAn kami lebih kuat dan tabah untuk masa akan dtg


Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Be strong

I finally learned what life is about..
Hanging on when ur heart had enough, and giving more when u wanna give up..

Indeed,
We're taking each step a day at time..
U cant lose ur spirit
Let live, forget and forgive
It's all how u see it
And just remember, keep it together

Dont u know u're never alone?

Plz hang on and BE STRONG

The fact is u're not defeated and
InsyaAllah soon u'll be smilling once again..
Then u wont have to feel it,
Let it go with wind..
Time passes us by

And know that u're allowed to cry

#plzbestrongdear #love

Monday, July 27, 2015

Life & hope

The moment u see no light, is the moment where the hope is gone

When that moment come..what u can do is "redha & pasrah"
Before u decide to do that..ask urself
Do u fight for it? Do u satisfy? Do u really cant bear with it? 

Remember..26th dec 2014
Ur dad came tu u n ask..do u really want to take this guy as ur husband and want to stay his side no matter what happen & being a good wife & mother ?
U confidently said "yes, i do"

U cant take that words back..marriage is not a place where u can try n error..is not a place where u can simply take easy & is definitely not a place where u can play around!
Once u in, u in till the end
 

But women's heart..when u read..
"Pemberian terakhir"
Its jus two words, but its meAn so much
Deep deep deeply hurt..

How bad i used to be, im still a woman who have a fragile heart

I dnt ask for it just for myself..i ask since i want to build a real family..
Not a year but forever..


#Words that u cant take it back
Its more hurt when u cant think bout ur own self anymore and try to turn it positively by saying "all these thing happen is becoz of me"

"Nie semua balasan"..i dnt know how this words will go ><

When u feel darkness in ur life..there is whisper in ur heart
"Allah is always by ur side, HE dont put urself in situation where u cant handle it by urself..wake up & be strong"

Thanks to Allah



What works for u might works for u alone..

Different people having different characteristic
Dont assume they are same with you..


"Kita xbleh paksa org hidup mcm kita. Tak adil, namanya

Sunday, July 26, 2015

WMA #12

I love him so much ><
May Allah give us a strong heart
May Allah protect our marriage
May Allah give him a strength
May Allah forgive my mistakes
May Allah keep us together till the end
May Allah show us a right path
May Allah give us a happiness 

Amin....



#ucan'tgiveup

Thursday, July 23, 2015

My life

Dear heart, plz be strong

Its been a long time im not coming here..its like yesterday that im so happy to get enggaged..
Yes i do

Now, i already married
To someone i cherish the most
To someone i love so much
To someone i thought can always accept me
To someone can make me strong
To someone can guide me tru this terrible life

I know Allah's plan is the best..no matter what happen i need to be strong and 'redha'

I try my best to be a good wife..
I do make mistakes before..a bad mistakes in my life by believing a person called  a man
I ruin my life..

I thought i'll be alone..nobody can accept me
Until my heart was open to someone.. A nice guy..i thank to Allah
HE still love me by sending him to me
Till now i still cant believe i married with him..
I juz move and follow the flow without knowing 'life is not always be at ur side'

When the past was revealed, im stuck
t_t
I dnt know what to do..
I dont know by keep quite make things worse
I juz love him so much..i juz want to be happy with him

I used to be bad..that the old me
I regret what was i did but it is too late?

May Allah open his heart to accept my past
Thats was my past, i cant change it
He married a new girl..><
But..

We cant change people's heart..
What we can do is keep believing in Allah no matter what happen..

Indeed im hurt ..#crying